July 2018 Update

An update from Nicole to Taylor explaining things that have happened so far over the summer break since the hospital Hey, I just wanted to give you an update of what has been happening over the past few months. I sort of just put everything that has been happening in here just to explain everything, … Continue reading July 2018 Update

12/12/18

12/12/18 after session thoughts I am actually really proud of myself for talking as much as I did and for some of the times I spoke, with a somewhat decent voice that wasn’t too croaky. This is the most pride I have felt since that theatre performance I did back in October. My goal for … Continue reading 12/12/18

10/20/18

10/20/18 Explanation and Thoughts of Recent Events Addressed to Nicole's counselor Here is an explanation of everything that has happened prior to my hospitalization, what happened the night of, what happened during my stay, and what has happened afterwards. As for what happened leading up to being there, it started about three weeks ago, when … Continue reading 10/20/18

The Painful Wait Continues

Thursday, April 26, 2018 7:00 pm A nurse comes out to them and tells them they now have a room ready. Nicole's mind continues to spin as she sees her captivity is only steps away. She looks one last time at the sliding doors before she follows the nurse back to a room in the … Continue reading The Painful Wait Continues

The Wait

Nicole and the officer pull out of the parking lot with Taylor close behind them. They make the twenty minute drive to the emergency room in Rottingdam. The officer drives all the way up to door to drop Nicole off while Taylor parks. Nicole stands there at the doors waiting, feeling awkward and out of … Continue reading The Wait

Pray For Me?

Thursday, April 26, 2018 Nicole takes out her phone and responds to the messages she has received from her friends, Marie, Leigha, and Matt. Matt saw the message she sent to the group chat and is concerned. The previous times she asked for prayers like this, it was on late nights when she was struggling … Continue reading Pray For Me?

The Final Session Continues

Thursday, April 26, 2018 4:19 p.m. Nicole sends a Snapchat message to her Cru group message and asks for prayer. She doesn't give any specifics but just asks them to pray for her. She suspects something is going to happen and that she will be taken to the hospital. When Taylor returns to the office … Continue reading The Final Session Continues

The Final Session

TRIGGER WARNINGThursday, April 26, 2018 3:00 p.m. Nicole is sitting in the counseling center waiting to go back into her counselor’s office. She is very nervous as this will be her last session with Taylor, and she doesn’t know how well she will handle the summer without a clinician. She’s been more depressed and anxious … Continue reading The Final Session

Sharing My Dark Thoughts

TRIGGER WARNING Thursday, April 12, 2018 It’s 10:45 a.m. on a sunny April Thursday, and a girl is sitting in the dining hall, trying to eat something before she goes to her counseling session. She feels nauseous and isn’t sure if it’s because she nervous or if it’s because she needs to eat something. After … Continue reading Sharing My Dark Thoughts

Experiences with Dissociating and Self-Injury

Trigger Warning Tuesday, November 7, 2017 4 p.m. "Hey, come back...Come back to me; it's okay," Taylor says gently as he tries to pull Nicole's mind back into the room. She is dissociating for the fifth time during their session. This happens when she feels so overwhelmed with anxiety that her thoughts pull her in … Continue reading Experiences with Dissociating and Self-Injury