July 2018 Update

An update from Nicole to Taylor explaining things that have happened so far over the summer break since the hospital Hey, I just wanted to give you an update of what has been happening over the past few months. I sort of just put everything that has been happening in here just to explain everything, … Continue reading July 2018 Update

12/12/18

12/12/18 after session thoughts I am actually really proud of myself for talking as much as I did and for some of the times I spoke, with a somewhat decent voice that wasn’t too croaky. This is the most pride I have felt since that theatre performance I did back in October. My goal for … Continue reading 12/12/18

10/20/18

10/20/18 Explanation and Thoughts of Recent Events Addressed to Nicole's counselor Here is an explanation of everything that has happened prior to my hospitalization, what happened the night of, what happened during my stay, and what has happened afterwards. As for what happened leading up to being there, it started about three weeks ago, when … Continue reading 10/20/18

Remembering and Missing

TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM One, two, three, … seventeen.I count the healing wounds on my skin.I trace each one with my fingers,feeling the ridges and creases of pink discolored scars.I rub each one tenderly,remembering and missing the pain of each one opening,the nostalgia of each cut made. Again, I rub my healing wrist, promising myself … Continue reading Remembering and Missing

My Wrist’s Wishes

TRIGGER WARNING: SELF HARM I look down at my wrist.She stares up at me with a sense of pleading,not to harm her anymore, not to cut her open, begging for just one day without fresh pain, time to pull herself together,bind her skin and heal,asking not to be stretched apart,trying to keep herself intact,working to … Continue reading My Wrist’s Wishes

The Final Session Continues

Thursday, April 26, 2018 4:19 p.m. Nicole sends a Snapchat message to her Cru group message and asks for prayer. She doesn't give any specifics but just asks them to pray for her. She suspects something is going to happen and that she will be taken to the hospital. When Taylor returns to the office … Continue reading The Final Session Continues

Hidden Anguish

Looking in from the outside, you see she has a pretty smile, Soft eyes, a kind heart, and a quiet presence. Her hugs are comforting, warm and secure. She puts up this facade to hide her true self, But underneath the mask is the hopelessness she carries. Her broken mind is hidden, cowering behind her … Continue reading Hidden Anguish