Session Thoughts She waits in the waiting room for about three minutes. She sits there with her phone in hand trying to distract herself from her anxiety. She hasn’t been dealing with it well as of late even though she knows she needs to. Over fall break, her aunt and cousin were in town, and … Continue reading 10/10/18

The Painful Wait Continues

Thursday, April 26, 2018 7:00 pm A nurse comes out to them and tells them they now have a room ready. Nicole's mind continues to spin as she sees her captivity is only steps away. She looks one last time at the sliding doors before she follows the nurse back to a room in the … Continue reading The Painful Wait Continues

Still Waiting

A little while later, a nurse comes over to give Nicole a cup of water. Her anxiety is still through the roof, and even though the aching indents in her arm are helping, there is no way she's going to be able to drink anything in front of anyone. She's severely dehydrated, and she desperately … Continue reading Still Waiting

The Wait

Nicole and the officer pull out of the parking lot with Taylor close behind them. They make the twenty minute drive to the emergency room in Rottingdam. The officer drives all the way up to door to drop Nicole off while Taylor parks. Nicole stands there at the doors waiting, feeling awkward and out of … Continue reading The Wait

Leaving Safety

Thursday, April 26, 2018 4:33 p.m. Taylor comes back to the room, and after a few minutes, Matt knocks on the door, slowly opening it. He looks to Nicole and greets her in a low voice. "Hey." Still standing in the doorway, he turns to Taylor and introduces himself, "Hi, I'm Matt. Would it be okay … Continue reading Leaving Safety

Pray For Me?

Thursday, April 26, 2018 Nicole takes out her phone and responds to the messages she has received from her friends, Marie, Leigha, and Matt. Matt saw the message she sent to the group chat and is concerned. The previous times she asked for prayers like this, it was on late nights when she was struggling … Continue reading Pray For Me?

The Final Session Continues

Thursday, April 26, 2018 4:19 p.m. Nicole sends a Snapchat message to her Cru group message and asks for prayer. She doesn't give any specifics but just asks them to pray for her. She suspects something is going to happen and that she will be taken to the hospital. When Taylor returns to the office … Continue reading The Final Session Continues

The Final Session

TRIGGER WARNINGThursday, April 26, 2018 3:00 p.m. Nicole is sitting in the counseling center waiting to go back into her counselor’s office. She is very nervous as this will be her last session with Taylor, and she doesn’t know how well she will handle the summer without a clinician. She’s been more depressed and anxious … Continue reading The Final Session

College Health Center Visit

Friday, April 20, 2018 It’s 7:30 a.m., on a chilly Friday morning and Nicole wakes up to the vibrations of her phone alarm next her face. She looks at the time. “I have thirty more minutes till I need to get ready for class. At 8, I will get up and shower and get dressed, … Continue reading College Health Center Visit

Sharing My Dark Thoughts

TRIGGER WARNING Thursday, April 12, 2018 It’s 10:45 a.m. on a sunny April Thursday, and a girl is sitting in the dining hall, trying to eat something before she goes to her counseling session. She feels nauseous and isn’t sure if it’s because she nervous or if it’s because she needs to eat something. After … Continue reading Sharing My Dark Thoughts